Hiding My Joy

“I panted for honor, for money, for marriage and you were laughing at me. I found bitterness and difficulty in following these desires, and your graciousness to me was shown in the way you would not allow me to find anything sweet which was not you.

Augustine | Confessions

Therefore I will hedge up her way with thorns,
and I will build a wall against her,
so that she cannot find her paths.
She shall pursue her lovers
but not overtake them,
and she shall seek them
but shall not find them.
Then she shall say,
I will go and return to my first husband,
for it was better for me then than now.’

Hosea 2:6-7